The Beginning

Today is the beginning.

It should have been the beginning a long time ago.

I am choosing to love my fiance with my whole heart.

This is going to be a hard journey and I probably don't know what I am getting myself into; but there is one thing I do know.  In order to make my marriage the best marriage possible, I need to devote myself to it whole heartedly.  I'm not saying that I should spend my every waking moment with my fiance and totally disregard the world around me.

No. That's not what I am saying.

I am choosing to break down my wall. I know it won't happen over night. It might not even happen in the next week.

But.

God is definitely showing me that my future husband does not need to be abandoned by a heart that is unwilling to give itself completely to Him.

Vulnerability.

An intimacy so tender that you are giving the person you love the most the ability to hurt you.

An understanding that they will do their best not to do that.

I love you, Jay.

Here's to the beginning of an open love with you.